Testimonial by Mary Cowlishaw
(July 2005)

Private Reading

As I sat waiting for the doorbell to ring I was so nervous, I didn’t know what to expect. This was my first reading and I didn’t know what to expect or if I even believed in it all but with just a few words from Maria I felt relaxed and calm.
My dad died when I was just 15 years old and my world collapsed.  He was, the only good thing in my life, my mother favoured her boys.
Years went by and I set up home with my husband and children.  We worked hard to provide a happy home for our children, which we achieved.  Though I still carried the issues surrounding my brothers and their wrong doings toward me and I didn’t want anything to do with them.
I still thought about my dad everyday, which is how Maria came to give me a reading.  She told me things that I had forgotten about, she assured me that my dad was happy and that it was time to let him go.  She picked up on the fact that there were certain family members, that I had lost contact with and that it were time to forgive in order to move on.
I was happy with Maria’s reading, but how could I forgive my brothers that I hadn’t seen in 18years and that I had so much hatred for?

Two days after the reading I received a telephone call about one of my brothers daughters, who nobody had seen since she was 16years old.  She was now 45 and wanted to find her dad.  I was the only one who could help her, so with the help of my two daughters we arranged it all.  The day we went to visit him, he greeted us all with open arms, I stood and looked at this lonely, frail man.  He was once a force to be reckoned with and that day I did forgive him.  6 months later, my brother died at the age of 65.
His funeral brought me together with my other brother and again, he was a shadow of the man he once was.  After talking with him and mending some bridges, I forgave him too.
We will never have the bond that brother and sister should have but at last they had my forgiveness.
That was 11months ago now and I am still catching up with sister-in-laws and their children, who are all grown up now with children of their own.
I still think of my dad everyday but I have let him go now and I have forgiven my brothers.
I can’t believe how much better I feel in myself, I don’t have the feelings of loneliness and hatred that I had all my life anymore.
I would like to thank you Maria for what you have done for my family and me.  Thank you for making my life complete

God bless you.

Mary